If we live long enough we will experience something that completely wrecks our plans. We experience something that causes us to turn to God and ask, “Why?” Why did this happen? Why do we have to experience loss? Why can my will not align with Your will? In these moments we feel like we have nothing to give. We feel like there is no wind in our sails.
We live in a world and society that is low on hope. Everywhere we turn, we see things that communicate to us that we don’t measure up. We don’t look like the people on television, we don’t feel like the happy ending of our favorite movie, and our lives don’t seem to be nearly as fun and adventurous as the people that we follow on Instagram.
We live in a world that scoffs at vulnerability and tells us that we must always project strength. But if we live long enough, we learn that there are days where we cannot even fake it. There are days where everything with us feels so wrong that we can’t possibly give people the impression that things are good. What do we do then?
“Give your burdens to the Lord and He will take care of you.” -Psalm 55:22
Sound simple? It’s not.
Time and time again, we ask God to take away our pain, sadness, and temptation, yet we still feel it. We try to give our burdens to God, but everyday we feel more and more burdened. It takes far longer to pass off our anxieties to God than it does to take on more anxiety.
But there is hope. Whatever we are going through, we are not alone. Even when we feel distant from God, He is still there working for us. Even when everything in our life feels out of control or messed up, God is there. God is our provider. We will ultimately be taken care of by the Almighty God. And there are some pains, doubts, and fears that may never leave us, but God will still work in us. Paul speaks of something like this in his life:
He says this, “In order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Cor 12)”
God’s power is made perfect in our shortcomings, failures, and pain. Often we may feel like we can only give a little, but God can do so much with our little. With little food, Jesus fed 5000 hungry people. With little faith, God can move mountains. We are fully known and fully loved by a good Father, who created us, and will do so much with what little we can offer.
Even in our deepest and realest pain, God is beckoning us deeper into a relationship with Him. He wants to show His almighty power in us.
Let us share our weaknesses. Let us be vulnerable and open with each other, so that God, in His unending grace, can take our brokenness and messiness and write a beautiful story of love and redemption with our lives.